Roller Coaster

Here I am, a few days before my graduation ceremony and the commencement. I've always think about my graduation day and when it's finally almost here, i must say that its pretty surreal. My college years will soon ended and I will embark on a new chapter in my life. Although I'm not officially done as a student yet, as I will go to China soon after graduation to learn the language, but at least my life as a college student here in the US will soon end.

In the last blog I'd talk briefly about my three years in Portland, which is just a chunk of my whole experience studying abroad, pursuing my college education. If I counted the 1 year of college prep in Canada and the 2 years of community college in Houston, then in total I had been away from home for a good 6 years!! In short, so far I have spent most of my adult life being away from my family and the comfort of my culture,embracing instead, the independent life of a college student, a life of freedom and self-discovery. Through all the ups and down, it has been, no doubt, the best years of my life.

Looking back, I have learned so much over the past 6 years. Obviously I've also grown both physically and mentally, as well as spiritually. Physically, I see my weight keep changing like a roller coaster, from skinny..to buffy...to chubby...to VERY chubby....and then back to not-so-chubby...then to (almost) skinny....and now back to (almost) chubby again =p Mentally, I felt that I've matured a lot, especially in the last two years. I see things differently now that I'm older *sight* I'm now obviously more learned and open minded (although growing up, I felt that I've always been open minded compare to most of my friends). Spiritually, it has been a roller coaster ride for me too. Peace is the word that I'll use to describe my spiritual being right now. to make long story short, let me just say that I have now make peace with my self and my spiritual life...

However, the one thing in my life that remain constant and unchanged over the past years is my LOVE life! lol..well it doesn't really mean that absolutely nothing had happen in the last 6 years, I had some close calls and a few flings here and there, but I just still yet to find the one. Nevertheless, right now I'm not desperately in need for finding a gf or constantly in search for one..on the contrary, i'm not in a hurry whatsoever..maybe because of the fact that (I think) I don't put much effort in the searching or the pursuing part, that have left me in this situation -.-" Anyway it will take a whole blog just to discuss my love life and I'll save it for later =p

I'm very fortunate to be given the opportunity to study over here and I can't thanks my parents enough for everything that they've done for me so far! They will be coming in two days and I'm very excited!! I'm also very excited for my upcoming trip to the East Coast, soon after the graduation ceremony..we will be visiting DC, NY and finally end the trip in Toronto where I'll meet up with some of my old friends from CIC..I can't wait!

I guess I will end this blog here..there are still so many things that I still want to write but the urge of writing my final paper is more important right now..*sight* I've been procrastinating in writing this paper and it will be due in 2 days while I still haven't typed a single word! I will update u guys on my graduation ceremony and my trip to east coast as soon as I get back..but for now,
Adios ~

Three years??

omg its been almost three years since I last wrote on this blog! weww how fast time goes huh? when I first start this blog I was just arrive in Portland, and now that I will soon graduate, I will soon say goodbye to this city too =(

3 years..i cant believe its been 3 years! well what can I say about Portland after living here for 3 years? despite the never-ending rain, I really love Portland! I will surely miss the laid-back atmosphere, the super liberal/weird Portlanders, the food carts, the gorgeous PSU's Park Block during Fall, the many festivals at the Waterfront during Summer, the hip Pearl District, the cozy bars and lounges in downtown & 23rd, the golf courses around Portland, the scenic drive along the Colombia gorge on 84 East, the many beautiful bridges, I might even will miss the bizarre WEATHER! (like now its already June but I have yet seen the Sun only for 10 min in the last 5 days!!)

But I think what I will miss the most from Portland is Mt Hood..I remember when I first arrive in Portland and was driven from the airport to om Leo's house, I saw Mt. Hood for the first time and surely I was (and still is) captivated by its beauty and magnificent..it was love at first sight. Since then every time the sun came out and the sky is clear, I always try to seek a view of Mt. Hood..seeing it in awe really is a source of inspiration for me. My heart stops ever time I can see a glimpse of Mt Hood from driving on top of the Marquam Bridge on the way to 84 East from 405..Ohh Mt. Hood, u will surely be missed t.t















wow now when I think about it there are many things that I will miss from Portland..I even haven't mention how much will I miss all of my friends here and the places that we use to hang out! Time really flies!

I will try to write this blog more often now. I will not make any promises but I really think writing this blog might actually help cool me down a lil bit =p I do enjoy writing it although maybe nobody knows of this blog's existence..and for those who knew of it existence by now will most likely forget already -.-" But hey its okay I think it will be better if less people actually read it because then I think I can be more free in expressing my thoughts here =)

those who born in February..

Hey, for those of you who were born on February this is what an article in a magazine says about you! Some are quite true, some are...well you figure it out yourself :p

"Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract.Intelligent and clever. Changing personality.Attractive. sexiest out of everyone.A real speed demon.Has more than one best friend.Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt.Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn.Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp.Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous.Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions."

For those of you who born in Feb, what do you think?? Personally for me, I think 80% of it is true..but hey maybe its just the way my mind reacts to it when I read it..so who knows rite..hehehe

my obsession, my passion, my golf

uhh i felt soo tired today, i dont know why..pdhal hari ini ga ngapa2in..i spent the whole day at home..wat a boring sunday!! I woke up at 12, have my lunch, and then I turn the tv and watched the pga tour. This week its the John Deere Classic, and when I turned the show, the leader was Tim Clark from South Africa, and he just birdied the 10th hole which makes him 3 shot ahead of Jonathan Bryd. I kindda like this fella, he has play some solid golf and last year he even finished 2nd at Augusta, but so far he had never won in the pga tour..so this might be his first chance to win in tour and he seems to have a really good chance to really win this time. Butttt when all seems going in Tim Clark's direction, he suddenly bogeyed the 15th hole while his contender, Bryd birdied the 16th hole. Now the lead is down to only 1 stroke, with Tim Clark at -17 and Jonathan Bryd at -16. Clark pared the 16th hole while Bryd at the same time was on the green in 2 at the par-5 17, with a really good chance of makin an eagle or at least a birdie to tie the lead. Bryd did go on and make the birdie after missing the eagle put. He and Clark are now tied for the lead at -17. Clark need to birdie the 17th to take the lead again, but instead of a birdie, sadly Clark made a painful bogey at the par 5 17th after hitting his second shot to a deep greenside bunker, missing his third shot, on the green in 4 and miss the all important 6-footer par putt to stay in -17 and tied for the lead. Meanwhile Jonathan Bryd pared the 18th which secure his lead in -17. Tim Clark, now at -16, need to birdie the last hole to force a playoff with Bryd. His second shoot leave him about 25 foot from the hole and he missed his birdie putt. Jonathan Bryd finally won the 2007 John Deere Classic..What an exciting round of golf for all of the dramas in the finishing holes! in just about an hour, Tim Clark had lost his 3 strokes advantage and finally lost the tournament..its pretty sad to watch him lost because he was so close in winning it. But well again thats golf, full of surprises!

most of you maybe don't understand what I've just wrote because I know maybe none of you had ever watch a golf tournament or even played the game. For those of you who thinks that golf is boring, lame, old or if it's not even a sport..well let me tell you that YOU ARE WRONG!!! ok, since I dont have any other topics to talk about, why dont we talk about golf..First of all let me tell you that golf is not a boring sport at all!! My god its even maybe the least boring sport ever!! I mean golf is the only sport in which are played in different locations, layouts, situations, weathers, and even environmets, and there are a million ways to play it..so its not boring at all, its FAR from boring! I mean how can you get bored when u can play different golf courses, try a new one every week..(for me nothing beats the excitement of trying a new golf course btw =p) Listen, you can play soccer or tennis or basketball all around the world, and the courts or the fields will always be the same, rite?? But golf? One golf course and the other golf course are very different.. even every holes are different..the golf course in Indonesia and the golf course in US are very different..you wont get the same feeling, experience, or even enjoyment from one golf course to the other..or from one round to the other even if u are playing on the same course on the same day..that is the beauty of the game! For those of you who think that golf is only for omm2 or bapak2 (old guys), WRONG! Because nowadays the number of youngster who plays golf are increasing faster than ever! Young and sporty brands like Nike, Adidas, Oakley, even Puma now has their own golf lines. Golf is no longer seen as the old men sport..golf today is more young, sporty and some even see it as fashionable..

with all of those reasons and plus the advantage of playing golf in making business relations and connections really make golf a must try for all of you who are looking for a new hobby. But I shall warn you that once you are hook, U ARE HOOKED!! golf is a very addicting sport! i remember when I first fall in love with golf, I really cant think of anything else beside golf for the whole day! It even goes as far as unconsciously practicing my swing in public or even imagining to hit a golf ball every time I saw green grasses!! LOL

Anywayyy I can go on and on talking about golf and I assure u this will not be the last time im gonna talk about golf in this blog..hahaha

"whatever will be, will be"

well I guess WELCOME TO MY BLOG!!! hahahaha never thought of one day havin one of this though, but hey here we are at the premier of my blog!!! just yesterday actually i discover that some of my best friends - i wont tell the names but u guys know who u are - suprisingly have kept a blog of themselves for quite a while and the best part is THEY NEVER TOLD ME ABOUT IT!!! huh WAT A FRIEND!! anyway when i finished reading some of 'em, I then realize maybe it would be fun for me as well to have my own blog..my own space on the net where I can share my feelings, thoughts, stories, or anything to anyone who bothers to read it. So yea, maybe that is the reason why Im writing my first blog right here right now =)

well why dont i start by telling you guys why did I choose the title of my blog "Que Sera, Sera"? For those who don't know, it is a quote in latin which means "whatever will be, will be". When I noticed this quote for the first time, I thought to my self, "hey that's me!" all this time, that is actually the motto of my life.."whatever will be, will be", "let it flow", or "take it easy" are always the voice deep within me every time i face difficulties. Im a type of guy who tend to look at my problems from the positive side. Im full of of positive thinking i guess hehehe..when i face a problem or make a mistake, I always try not to go deep within it and keep hurting my self by keep telling my self of how stupid i am to make that mistake..or at least even during the worst situation I still can say this: "well at least Im still alive and breathing or the mistake that I just make doesnt cost me my life nor a great deal of my fortune.." well i guess that makes me a verrrrry EASY GOIN person!! that says it all!! thats why maybe you guys, even those who have known me pretty well, rarely see me in anger or depress - im not saying that i never in such a situations - but i just choose not to be in such situation and try not to think about it..sometime even to the point where I ignore it..and it can be ugly LOL..lesson of my life, dont ever ignore your problems..it will just get bigger and bigger!!! Just dont let the problem get into you and controls you. You have to remember that there must be a solutions to every problems you're facing. You just have to choose which solution work best for you, and then you can move on with your life...

I guess that's enough for today's blog. I apologize if my english is not good enough or if its confusing to read, yeah im a confusing guy indeed =p